There were three parties planned by CSA people this week. at Cid's, Caste's and Manoy's... (go ahead and inviting myself haha) But Happy Birthday to Carlo, Carlo and Marlon's Brother.

However, due to the incident last monday,  I felt depressed.  Experiencing and remembering that back in highschool I practically have been to every house party of either the two boy barkadas HFOMF and BC, I felt depressed and thought I was losing my social life,  because there was no possibility of even trying to ask permission after what had happened last monday (nga!).

Yes, it was irrational thoughts and have tried to talked myself out of it by trying to talk to my different friends that I haven't bonded with for a long long time. Losing my social life was yes, just an exageration but I just felt that ever since after my graduation, the summer of 2005, my world had crash and I couldn't promise myself of attending all or ANY of the parties of my friends anymore. And recently, I've been waiting for "especially" Carlo Alcid's Birthday Party, but got me more depressed when it hit me. "I'm not going to be able to go there on friday".

However, with the turn of fate. Cid's, Caste's, and Manoy's celebrations were cancelled. Today is my first day of Orient2, waste, total waste of time.   

But I came home at around 11:30pm. Why? Because Carlo Alcid's mom ( who hoped that I could come atleast for just a while) has planned a birthday surprise for him tonight. And just this morning and afternoon and at the very last minute me and couple of friends were trying to figure out who to tell (close friends raw eh! hehe) . It was succesful naman, and how ironic. I think, for that moment there, I just got my life back.   I was that person who wasn't supposed to go out but here I am, with one of the so called boys again.

 A sense of belongingness.

Only this time without my sidekick kash, I still fit myself for being able to adjust with spontaineous parties but atleast this time I'm really invited. *teehee!*

 (Also finally, I got to "formally" befriend Mars, Kebyo's Girlfriend even though we've always seen each other hanging out but nobody was gentleman enough to introduce us to each other. hehe. Mars must've been thinking that too,  *shy* type lang kase ako. haha. Eh, I just tried to take a picture of the two...  

So... as usual, when I came home. I got scolded by my two mothers.  the one acting to be one. the one who biologically gave birth to me. So here I am locked my room, un moody, and still dressed. haha. And I can still managed to laugh at myself. It's just I realized, that, back in highschool, that's the way it was, only before I used to go home at 3am or 2am before I got caught, but damn. 1130pm?? ... whoa, I must be growing up?? But that's OK. I have reach my fulfillment anyway, to go to Cid's Birthday.

The Two CIDS, my Kuya & the other Kuya. hehehe. So now, I can survive to house arrest myself.  Which I hope would be good for a couple of months.

I'm probably just waiting for my birthday  on what kalokohan I'd be planning to do. They can't shout at me can they?... uh... yeah ... been there. done that. but so what. in other words.

 BAHALA NA SI BATMAN *peace out