i'm in the middle of writing (supposed to be) a paper with this ARR subject. i know this is one of those times a regular student encounters when you have this really really task that you hate doing (right now because we loath the teacher). But hey, its been a really long time that I got impatient with school work. Or I don't know.

I told my classmate... "you know, there are really times that i want to avoid people, situations, things. But no matter how i would want avoiding them, I still face them because I know I have no other choice but to." ... "but even though I have thought about this really deeply... there's just.." "im really losing my patience with (subject)!!"

yeah... and i was serious. Since frosh, my motivation was "keep writing toni, imagine if that you're a journalist now and your article is due soon" ... yeah, because prior to taking BS-educational Psychology, I wanted to be a journalist really.. but now I'm a journal article writer. research research. research papers. But I'm not complaining bout my course, I've grown to be addicted to it. But this one paper! this one prof! ARRRR... you're making me hate what I love the most! :writing:

Right now. after I make this blog I hope I have enough pressure to start writing it. My only determination now is "I need to finish this and give the best that I can give not because I like you. but I need to get that honor after graduation". The honor's not such a big deal for me really when you talk about uhm.. future (because there's still a lot of factors involve to get a good job) but nothing much.. its more of self-satisfaction. hehe.

going back with the paper... hay naku. (haha procrastinating. still trying to avoid) I've never felt this aversive towards a task since I don't know. How can I possibly hate the prof and the task at the same time??? haha. trying to "understand" the situation.

times like this.. i just really want to finish the term...

but then... PERO AYOKO PA [but i still don't want to]

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