have i been so pessimistic lately? my biorhythm reports that my intellectual and emotional rhythms is dropping low right now. [haha yeah, ever since high school my bestfriend, Vivienne Zerrudo read these (horoscopes and the like) things once in a while...

Damn that, i hate these type of days... I don't like getting too emo.

F.Y.I. I'm not that busy right now, and effin' bored. makes me think that I'd rather be loaded with work like I've been since the start of the term. Atleast something's up everyday and I'm not the type of person who deals with boredom. (according to psychological assesments, extroverts get drained with being alone)

One more dragging about having too much free time, is that I end up thinking. Thinking and reflecting. and more Thinking which eventually ends up thinking about things which shouldn't be thought about... you get me?. Ohhh, not mentally healthy.

So ok got pretty bored now, and wanting to find meaning in what I am feeling right now... and hopefully it heals or find its way back to numbness.

As the cards you can see below, yeah, did some tarot reading shit in attempt to rationalize some feelings. You have to pay for the interpretation, so i just tried locating the meaning of card in another tarot site. And now, I am off for more reflecting and will try my best to put meaning in the results of my cards . Talk about real boredom. and being so pathetic. hayyyy Lve. Happy anniversary to my independent/single life for me! =)

Two of Swords. This is the infamous blindfolded lady with the crossed swords. Crossed swords suggest a clash of ideas or words. The blindfolded lady, indicating impartiality, cannot uncross the swords, but she keeps them still. This is the knowledge of how to compromise, keep these two sides in balance and at peace. Note that this is a temporary compromise. The Querent may be in the middle, or just FORCED TO ACCEPT IT. Either way, they must be told that it won't last. The direction of your new brain power here is how to keep these two ideas from fighting, to hold off trouble and make peace.

Seven of Pentacles. A farmer watches pentacles grow on a tree. Sometimes, there is no way to take control of a situation. The farmer waits for the fruit on his tree to ripen so he may harvest and sell it; he has very little control over when this will happen. All he can do is BE PATIENT. So, too, with waiting for a job offer or raise, waiting for work to pay off, or a new diet, waiting for lottery numbers to be read. Sometimes you have to realize that you've done all you can do. It is out of your hands now. All you can do is WAIT. Ultimately, the sevens share that message, the farmer's message: hold out, be patient, don't rush, go around. Be in control of yourself and you can be in control of this situation.

Knight of Pentacles. This teen appreciates the very best things money can buy - not only because he likes such things, but because he doesn't like to stand out. He's got projects going, jobs on the side, he fears not having what others have, not fitting in. In comparison to the Knight of Wands, however, this teen likes being at home. He needs to have his own room or secret place, and woe to anyone who goes into that room or changes it in any way. This teen has his own organization system for everything. On the negative side, this teen can be far too solitary, too concerned with perfection, what he does or does not have, or earning a place of respect. Fear of failure or competition or standing out may keep him from leaving his room. He values and protects beautiful things and is a loyal employee if treated right.

Four of Wands. The ships have come in, and the Querent can sit back and enjoy them. This card, with its four wands holding up garlands, implies the foundation of a house, literally and figuratively. Whatever the Querent has been building, they have established it, strong and solid. They can take a moment to admire what they've done, enjoy the first rewards it has brought them, and bask in their initial success. Sometimes this card suggests marriage; once again, laying the foundation for the future.
Two of Wands. Usually a person choosing one wand over another. Wands are passion, and passion is not something that works when split. It requires a single focus. This card indicates a CHOICE TO BE MADE, but the instincts are right, and the choice made, where to put your energy and passion, will be a right one.


Ten of Swords. A man dead with ten swords in his back. It is a nasty looking card. Sometimes everything just... goes... wrong. And this is a card that lets the Querent know that, yes, things are as bad as he fears. The troublesome swords can't get much worse than this, with bad things said about the Querent, ruin of their lives. But as the fellow in the card indicates, the swords have done their worse. You can't be more dead. It is over.

Page of Wands. A message, possibly from far away, about a trip, career move, leadership position or something spiritual/philosophical.  

::rolling eyes: seems to be my favorite expression lately). Anyway, I don't know exactly how to interpret these shit. But I do know I can get a little advice from it (i think). It's like counseling.

Funny thing is about the challenges and obstacles, is basically telling me to wait for the fruits of my labor will soon bear. And for my advice? ... choices should be made. WOW. that's was helpful... (rolling my eyes again)...